Happy Independence Day, all! I wish all my American friends many hotdogs, pies, and fireworks!
Well, every time I start to get a little optimistic, something comes and takes it away. Buuuuuut, I do have a good chance of something good coming out of my current situation!
Right now, I MIGHT be a new shift manager, ORRRR I might have a new job altogether. Who knows?? But I am going to go for it. Either one will do me just fine right now. Being a shift manager at Noodles may be a lot of responsibility and a lot of yucky work, but it will look great on my resume. Even if I can only stand it for a few months! But I'll try to hold onto my position for as long as possible. Especially considering the state of the economy right now. x_x;
So I have a couple of chances to make some decent money and reach my short term goal. Right now, all I want is a low-key job that pays well enough to cover my rent, food, bills, and help pay back all the people who have helped me in my time of unemployment. After that comes conventions and costumes. I'm just thankful that I haven't lost my enthusiasm for this hobby. I think with someone with my personality, who uses escapism to cope with the real world, it suits me very well. I think that's why I can't really get tired of it. So long as they keep creating amazing games/anime/movies/etc, I'll never tire of trying to portray my favorite characters, all of whom are very dear to me.
I'm also going to get therapy. My world has been turned upside down in a very short period of time, and it's high time that I bring in the professionals. Lately, I've become extremely depressed to the point where I felt like I would never be happy again. It comes in waves and it only strikes when my anxiety is at its peak. I admit, I will take the depression over the anxieties I used to have, because the anxieties would last for months at a time, and the depression only just comes and goes. Either one is not good, though, and I need to find a way to let it no longer interfere with my life. The rest of my family has been getting therapy and it seems to be doing good things for them, so it's high time that I get it, too.
But lately what's been helping me deal with my emotions is Shingeki no Kyojin, or Attack on Titan. Even though this is a very depressing anime at times, it actually helps me deal with my feelings. And it's oh my god it's SO GOOD. I am obviously cosplaying from it!!! I would love to join the parade of cosplayers that I KNOW will be at Otakon this year, but I am just not willing to wear all those layers in August heat! I would be more willing to endure the heat if I had the 3D Maneuvering gear, but I would definitely not be able to make the gear in time. I'm going to work on it this month anyway, and I am going to work on it with a friend after Otakon so we can cosplay together at Anime USA!!! I just wish AUSA was not so early this year! But even with just a month, if we work together, we should be able to finish our gear in time. I'm very excited!